Thursday, February 25, 2010

waiting

I will wait for You there
Down on my knees where I met You
Give You all of my cares
Find a grace to hold onto now
I’m calling for You

I will wait for You there
far from the world and it’s violence
It left broken and bare
I need to hear You in the silence now
I’m calling for You

And with outstretched arms
I will sing out melodies
And my beating heart
Will pour out a symphony
Hallelujah’s in the morning
Hallelujah’s in the night
I will wait for you as long as I have life

I will wait for You there
Down On my knees where I met you
Cause life is a war fought with tears
But You are the strength I hold onto now
I’m calling for you
~ Phil Wickham


I feel like I am waiting for so many things, and that I am so close to reaching to them...

being done with college
becoming a teacher
marrying Andrew
living with Andrew
bearing and caring for children
finding my ministry with Mission Adelante and Heartland.
God using me
doing something big
traveling to places that need Jesus
living a frugal, substantial life where I give up my worldly possessions.
being more like Jesus.


But these plans are not plans, unless they are in God's will, and only you Jesus I can wait on. Only you, I can put my hope and trust on you Lord.


I am being tested though, I am being hit with envy, jealousy and pure judgment because I don't have what others are getting around me. Lord purify my heart so I won't love hating and being angry with what I don't have.

Lord I need your strength.